Ethan's Last Day At Church

My sweet boy on Sunday, May 30, 2010, ready for church. We never imagined it would be his last day there.


I remember taking this picture, I remember his baby smell, I remember everything...

June 4th...

is approaching like a freight train.

Next Saturday will mark the date Ethan left our arms last year for the arms of Jesus.

We covet your prayers (as always!!) this coming week and weekend as we face the anniversary of the worst day of our lives.

And tomorrow marks the last Sunday Ethan was at church.

I remember that day so, so clearly... it is burned into my heart, just like all of our memories with him.

They say to have a child is to make the decision to let your heart walk outside of your body.

But what about when that heart walks in Heaven?

Jesus, be near me now...

Our Ethan...

on May 26, 2010, trying so hard to roll over.

And cooing up a storm when he gets tired and Mama puts him on his back!

How is my heart able to keep beating when it is so broken?

How am I breathing without that smile?

I Love Daddy!

Ethan in Daddy's favorite shirt... May 24, 2010.


The mention of my child's name may bring tears to my eyes,

But it never fails to bring music to my ears.

If you are really my friend, let me hear the music of his name!

It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul!

~Author Unknown~

What Mama Wouldn't Do...

to have my little messes to clean up again!

Here I am spitting up on my Pack-N-Play this day last year!

Hey, she probably put me on my tummy right after I ate... what's a baby to do? :)

Waiting For Sissy

On this day last year, Ethan was waiting in the car with Mama... for Sissy to be done with gymnastics and dance practice.

Today, he waits in Heaven with Jesus... for Sissy to join them one day.

It's been a rough day of missing you, Sweet Boy. It always is, but some days are even worse than others.

I love you beyond measure!

Love,

Mama

♥Mama LOVE Ethan!♥

Ethan Is...

a big brother!!!!!

I am 8 weeks, 2 days pregnant with Baby #6--- who is due December 11, 2011!

Emily is simply beside herself with excitement, just as she was when we were expecting/had Ethan. She is the best Big Sissy! :)

We hope our family and friends will rejoice with us--- we are so grateful God has blessed us with another precious child.

We also hope you will continue to pray for us and talk to us about Ethan--- no child could ever replace him, and we love, miss, and long for him just the same as we always have. This baby, though already so loved, doesn't make not having Ethan with us any easier.

One more thing for now, lots more later: Baby was conceived about a week after Ethan's First Birthday... we found out we were expecting on March 28th, the day after Ethan's memorial nursery dedication! I just love God's timing--- so, so special!