Our Precious Ethan Carter

Ethan Carter Lane was born on March 12, 2010, perfectly healthy except for a rare congenital heart defect (Supravalvular Aortic Stenosis and Supravalvular Pulmonic Stenosis) that has been passed down through the generations in my family. His sister, Emily (born November 22, 2004), has the same defect. She had two cardiac catheterizations with balloon angioplastys and open-heart surgery, all before the age of one. She is a happy, energetic little girl who has never been sickly (you would never even know she has a heart defect) and has an incredible future. Her little brother Ethan was expected to follow a similar course. He was a "normal baby"... he never looked or acted sick, never struggled, never let us know just how severe his heart defect really was. On June 4, 2010, at two months and three weeks of age, Ethan underwent his first procedure--- a cardiac catheterization with balloon angioplasty. Only they never started the actual procedure. When someone is put under general anesthesia, their blood pressure drops. When the doctors put our precious Ethan under, his heart could not handle the drop in blood pressure. He went into sudden, unexpected cardiac arrest, and teams of doctors tried everything they knew to save him. But, Jesus did the saving that day in His Own special way... and Ethan went to live forever in Heaven. This blog is simply one mother working through her grief and reconciling a Loving God with One Who allows us to suffer the loss of a child. It is also one mother wanting the world to know about her incredibly special son--- and the God Who loves him.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

To Ethan from His Sissies Emily and Julia

Dear Ethan,
I love you and I miss you and I want you here with me.  I wish you could see Julia.  Julia says, "I love you and I want to see you.  I wish I could meet you."  Julia says that she wants to squeeze you... kiss your kissable cheeks!  And I want to squeeze you, too!  And kiss your kissable cheeks!  Me and Julia wishes that we could squeeze you and kiss all over your cheeks--- Julia get one side and I get the other!  I miss you so much that I just want to lay down with you and take a nap!

Love, Sissy
and 
Love, Julia Sissy

And Julia says, "Waaa!"

One more thing, I'm making crafts with black-eyed peas!

And Julia eats Cheerios and Peach Puffs now!

And she is walking!!  And standing up by herself and sitting up by herself and saying "Mama" and "baby"!


Ethan and Emily the night before Ethan met Jesus face to face.
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