Our Precious Ethan Carter

Ethan Carter Lane was born on March 12, 2010, perfectly healthy except for a rare congenital heart defect (Supravalvular Aortic Stenosis and Supravalvular Pulmonic Stenosis) that has been passed down through the generations in my family. His sister, Emily (born November 22, 2004), has the same defect. She had two cardiac catheterizations with balloon angioplastys and open-heart surgery, all before the age of one. She is a happy, energetic little girl who has never been sickly (you would never even know she has a heart defect) and has an incredible future. Her little brother Ethan was expected to follow a similar course. He was a "normal baby"... he never looked or acted sick, never struggled, never let us know just how severe his heart defect really was. On June 4, 2010, at two months and three weeks of age, Ethan underwent his first procedure--- a cardiac catheterization with balloon angioplasty. Only they never started the actual procedure. When someone is put under general anesthesia, their blood pressure drops. When the doctors put our precious Ethan under, his heart could not handle the drop in blood pressure. He went into sudden, unexpected cardiac arrest, and teams of doctors tried everything they knew to save him. But, Jesus did the saving that day in His Own special way... and Ethan went to live forever in Heaven. This blog is simply one mother working through her grief and reconciling a Loving God with One Who allows us to suffer the loss of a child. It is also one mother wanting the world to know about her incredibly special son--- and the God Who loves him.

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

A Mother's Day Like No Other

I just felt like sharing a picture of me and my children on Mother's Day 2010! It is a beautiful memory for me. This was my only Mother's Day with Ethan, and he went to Heaven just weeks before his Daddy could have Father's Day with him. I feel so incredibly blessed that I had the privilege of having this one Mother's Day... there will truly never be another one like it, because it was the only one I will ever have with my son. I wish so much his Daddy could have had that Father's Day.

Tonight, though my heart aches for this little boy, it is also bursting with gratitude. God didn't "owe" me one single day with Ethan, but He gave me 84.

84 perfect, precious days with my perfect, precious son!

God is, indeed, so very good to us.




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