Our Precious Ethan Carter

Ethan Carter Lane was born on March 12, 2010, perfectly healthy except for a rare congenital heart defect (Supravalvular Aortic Stenosis and Supravalvular Pulmonic Stenosis) that has been passed down through the generations in my family. His sister, Emily (born November 22, 2004), has the same defect. She had two cardiac catheterizations with balloon angioplastys and open-heart surgery, all before the age of one. She is a happy, energetic little girl who has never been sickly (you would never even know she has a heart defect) and has an incredible future. Her little brother Ethan was expected to follow a similar course. He was a "normal baby"... he never looked or acted sick, never struggled, never let us know just how severe his heart defect really was. On June 4, 2010, at two months and three weeks of age, Ethan underwent his first procedure--- a cardiac catheterization with balloon angioplasty. Only they never started the actual procedure. When someone is put under general anesthesia, their blood pressure drops. When the doctors put our precious Ethan under, his heart could not handle the drop in blood pressure. He went into sudden, unexpected cardiac arrest, and teams of doctors tried everything they knew to save him. But, Jesus did the saving that day in His Own special way... and Ethan went to live forever in Heaven. This blog is simply one mother working through her grief and reconciling a Loving God with One Who allows us to suffer the loss of a child. It is also one mother wanting the world to know about her incredibly special son--- and the God Who loves him.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Aching...

for this little boy.




(Ethan getting ready to go to the pediatrician on Tuesday, June 1, 2010.)

"If my scars could speak, they'd say
That grace is my only hope
Grace is showing me the way..."

---From "Run to You", by Michael W. Smith.

It is only by the grace of God that I am still breathing.
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  1. AnonymousMarch 16, 2011 at 9:23 AM

    Dearest Bryanne & family,I was on here a few minutes ago & attempted to post a comment to you but it wouldn't go through.Will try again.You are so very precious.Ethan will always be remembered in our thoughts,our hearts.He was here for a reason,a purpose.He touched many hearts & lives while here.I don't believe it will be long before we'll all be going to Heaven by the signs of the times.You will be rejoined with all of your sweet babies including your beautiful baby boy Ethan.Until then God has more work for us to do.You are always with us in our hearts.Love you & family so very much.Cherish your friendship.God and Jesus cherish you.Always,Jackie

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  2. BryanneMarch 18, 2011 at 2:42 PM

    Jackie- I can't wait for the day when I look into his big, beautiful eyes and hold him again, and forever!! And his siblings, too!! Thank you for your encouragement and love. One of the nicest things anyone can say to me is that they remember Ethan. We love you so very much!

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