My cousin Erin told me about a song today...
She said she thought of me and Ethan when she heard it on the radio the other day.
It is about someone dying young, and one of the lyrics is:
"I've had just enough time."
It made me think of something I know to be true, but still need to be reminded of often.
Ethan doesn't feel like his life here was cut short, even though it was.
He doesn't look at it like that, even though we do.
He walks and talks with Jesus... looks in the face of the One Who made him... knows nothing but joy...
And can't wait to show me around Heaven.
Linda, a dear friend of ours (in fact, her husband is the friend who preached Ethan's Memorial Service), explained this to me:
Ethan does not miss me... he waits with great expectation for me to join him.
There is a difference.
And it is one I am so grateful for.
I am Ethan's Mama... I can't bear to think of him missing me, because that means he is not completely whole and happy.
Missing someone involves longing and sorrow...
No, I don't want him to miss me.
I thank my God Ethan feels no sorrow. And longs for nothing.
He is, as my sweet friend Linda says, "safe in God's arms".
He is completely whole and happy... he lacks nothing.
But he still looks forward to the day his Mama joins him.
He doesn't miss me--- he waits for me!
I needed this today, Erin. I love you, Cousin.
And I love you, Linda!
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