Her child plays with yours on the playground, but she fumbles with her purse or her phone, and doesn't seem to want to introduce herself or even make eye contact...
Because she is terrified you will want to make small talk about each other's kids--- as if everything is fine and one of hers is not buried in the ground.
She averts her eyes when you walk by her in the grocery store...
Because you have your baby with you--- and she knows she never will.
She is friendly when you speak to her, yet her eyes hold a deep sadness and there is something about her smile you just can't figure out...
Because it is all she can do to pay for her purchases without weeping uncontrollably.
She is so proud when you tell her that her daughter is precious...
And wishes you could have met her son, so you would know he is precious, too.
You ask her how she's doing, and she tells you she's fine...
Because she's not sure if you really want to know.
She knows you love her, and she loves you, too.
But still, she feels so incredibly alone...
Because with every breath, she aches for her son.
I dont know if you will remember me, but I am sure Josh will. I was his first roomie at SEC. Every so often I see if I can make contact but you two are hard to find. In the past few months your names have been in my heart to send prayers your way. I am sure you have plenty of people praying for you, but I want to let you know you have someone else out there thinking of you two.
ReplyDeleteOf course I remember you--- you came to our wedding! Thank you for finding us... and praying for us... I will tell Josh you wrote and it will mean so much to him! Please comment on here again with a way to get in touch with you, and I won't post the comment, I'll just use it to get your info so Josh can keep in touch with you (and then I will delete the comment without posting it for others to see)!
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